moment like this

im now 20... 3 more months to go then im finally 21..
my legal age... or i could say freedom going to conquer my world..
although im actually free from doing anything i want..
no curfew.. no mommy's girl's rules..

20 years of going through many thick and thin experiences..
from friendship to study to love to family...
i still miss my childhood time which was completely free from drama..
recently.. my mom found all my old love letters while clearing my store..
love letters during schooling moments..
i dont even recall the last time i touched those letters..
and where i placed them...
i saw my mom was flipping thorough those letters pages by pages..
smiling at it .. it was an uncanny for me to see her laughing
because what i realized was my mom barely speaks and understand english well
*all the letters were in english* =.=
she even ask me who is this... who is that...
it was funny for me to read it back once... the childish side of me
when i was immature..

few days ago.. i had a conversation with this friend of mine..
suddenly he mentioned to me that he found birthday card that i once gave him
when he was tidying up his room..
it was superb long long ago when i was having this amazing friendship with him..
we shared everything together..
when i was down... he was there to listen to all my problems..
.i could still remember vividly all the moments we once went through ..
we were close that time until people even mistook us as couple...
now, things are not the same for us anymore..
both of us went on with our own life...
not as close as last time anymore but still talk once in a while..
i miss being friends with him so he can still nag me for every stupid action i take..
afterall.....
what happened in my past always stay as memories in me

now what

i was so excited happily waiting for the new jusco mall to open..
so, at least i have new place to lepak around...
dont have to face my lappie 24/7
but it choose to explode the very last minute before
it's opening ceremony..
and 2 more weeks before im going back..
no more new mall for me..
melaka is starting to change to a busy city
as i could see more huge and tall poles with long track
for the train started to build along the river..
hopefully more shopping malls like the ones in KL


i kinda feel that the boredom'ness that striked on me
had changed me to a weird person..
weird as in.. im starting to bake like almost everyday..
from pasta to cup cakes and even cookies..
and and and...
yesterday,
i got my first order of my very own cookies to be ready before cny..
today.. more orders added into the list although
it was never my intention to make sales from it..
it was my mom's effort... went to her friends
praising my cookies *lolx.. auntiess nowadaysss..*
but still, i appreciate everything she did...
she always want the best for me..
guess that im gonna be busy baking
on my next trip back to melaka..
which will be one month later after im heading back to sabah..
whenever im back,
people always say this to me..

" y u every month also come back??"
"u very rich hor everytime come back..."
"air ticket very cheap ar???"

it was because we have like holidays
nearly every month for at least a week..
furthermore, im still a freshman...
do not have enough knowledge to travel around...

but long term holidays like what im having now
for almost 2 months made me miss my uni life...
the hectic life of it wont make me feel bored..
it wont make me waste my time


like...everyday sitting in front of my lappie
waiting for the GG season 3 to be downloaded into my comp...


or facebook'ing 24/7..
as u can see.. my whole mail fulled with facebook notification..
commenting on people's profile is never enough..

however,
my schedule will be damn packed starting next week..

~nach's farewell *still waiting for her notice*~
~ KL with mommy~
~ gave my words to foong for her trip to seremban, i guess so??~
~xmas with my friends~
~countdown party at matt's hse~
~ more and more outing with those whom i had gave my words to~


another 2 more weeks, i got to head back to sabahan life
for my 2nd sem...
i admit that i cant wait for it..
but thinking that assignments.. exams...
keep coming non stop ,
totally ruined my mood to start my new sem..
assignments and exams are always
the last two things in my list in uni..

at times... i felt frustrated with my life

lately, i totally forgotten how to manage my time properly..
and i think im going to waste all my time for this sem breaks..
im facing my lappie everyday..
my mom even told me that
my lappie only 'rest' when only im going to bed..

my day time = night.. my night=day
i have been sleeping late..
late as in 6am... it's not the fact that i was busy with my stuff
until i drag my sleeping time..
I've tried lying down at 1am but my mind was widely awake until 6am..

SLEEPING DISORDER????

maybe i do have one of those diseases

i felt like that there were too much burden in my brain..
too much til it might explode one day..
i could feel the heavy'ness in my mind ..
i have nothing to worry for now.. but it feels like
there are something kept my mind widely awake
when it comes to my sleeping time..
maybe i have overloaded too much stuff into my brain..

or maybe there were too many things have been going on recently..
especially the part that someone
spilled out one of the most sensitive issues for me..
it was heart-wrenching for me to hear 'those words' from that someone..
those words that came out from that
someone made me shed my tears once again..
not only me.. it also affected all my love's ones around me
after 5 years... 5 years which i took to forget it..
before this, I was literally suffocating and felt
as though I could not draw air into my lungs...
these past had been haunting me even until now
every decision or steps i take... i would doubt myself for a while..

but i have learnt that
a mistake is always a mistake..
once you have done it..
it will be a remembrance for life even if you are dead..

Namewee's back again

~electricity break down~
i am pretty sure everyone have gone through such situation before...

it is a family thing

whenever we are together..
we have this crazy camwhore addiction...

random

i have been waking up late everyday..
i can sleep up to 10 hours until evening..
because i have been burning my mid night oil on an online game
that i play everyday with my uni mates to keep in touch with them...
but today.. i was up was super early..
hoping for a better luck that i was able to get myself and elynn tickets for New Moon
that was showing on the theater first day today..
and yes luck was on our side...
both of us were able to get the last few places of the back seats for the first show..
the story line from the movie was what we expected as
both of us had already read the book
but not the ending..because the ending was 'hanging'
*when you guys watch it then you guys will get what i mean*
because it was different from the ending in the books..

overall.. it was worth watching *in my opinion*..
maybe not for others who have different opinion on that movie..
anxious about the next series Eclipse in next 6 months

my addiction is back!!!

i have staying home ever since i came back from sabah..
the only time i went out with my girls was last sunday..
my mom finds me odd for spending all my times at home..
because im not those typical home-sweet-home girl..
but i do admit that this time i do not have the urge
plan activities that are away from home..
maybe it is the time yet...
but tomorrow will be an exception..
because the movie of the year *in my list*
will be out on cinema..



i love to see robert pattinson on screen and
taylor lautner is so cool..
tomorrow im going to catch the first movie for the day with elynn..
good movie like Twilight saga- New moon..
of coz i would bring elynn to go crazy with me..
im seriously craving for this movie after one year waiting for it..
i think im gonna watch it more than once..
but it is worth watching over and over again..
even though i have already knew the story line till the end..